Give me about one more week in dealing with some dumb poop and its going to take a while but once I get it out of the way I'll be fine enough to get back to using my computer and being active!
Got sick also every time I think about going on the computer I get sick in the stomach and really stressed out so I got that going for me hopefully this hiatus won't last too long but I have no control over my dumb shit feelings I have my phone so I'm doing my best to keep my inbox under 100 messages so I don't rage quit and nuke it to 0 and that's about all I have to say for myself
A lot of things are going wrong lately and I've been really stressed out and on edge as of late so if I disappear for a while it's because I'm busy recuperating in my room our something
my imagination and worries are getting the best of me at must I can only sleep two hours a day if I force myself to sleep but that causes me to have really mess up nightmares so I don't do that unless I really have to
I just want to hide from my family I really want to get out of here and move out already but not having a job is making that idea really really difficult to pull off I'm sick if them pushing me too far it's too toxic over here I need out I really really do yet they're convinced that I want to stay it's disgusting I can't even explain how disgusting it is so yeah I don't know if our when I'll go I a hiatus but if I do you know why
this weather has been murdering me I've actually slept away two straight days because I wasn't able to bring myself to get out of bed and on the days when I can like today I've been too drained to do anything I can barely even type or process anything
I have so many things to draw especially a super belated gift for Raptorwolf-AML
because gah I really want to draw you a birthday gift ok
heck you know what? you've earned a free request that's your belated gift tell me what you want and I'll draw it when this weather is done attempting to murder me
and after that's all said and done I'll attempt to get other things done like REFERENCE SHEETS omfg I really wanna redraw rocket stars ref sheet again it looks so ugly I wanna draw him looking the way I want him to look! ; - ;
so yeah this has been an update!