status update

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I'm not sick anymore just stressed and weak from anxiety issues but after i get my shit sorted out I'll plan my 24 hour stream and get important stuff done during it! (which means I'll only do this 24 hour stream when I'm in the mood and mind set to work on said important things)
other than that I'll be doing designs for people FOR FREE and perhaps even for trade? I'll have that sorted out later when I post a journal for it ;v; yeee
this is the last update for this journal because I'm on my way to officially being back!
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-update-
me and nick are dumb and don't pay attention so I haven't been taking my dayquil and nyquil every day OOPS but I'm getting better so hopefully I'll be back in to drawing by next week????!!!!
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I just thought I'd announce that I'm much more sicker than I thought I was? And by much more sicker I mean for once in my life I am highly contemplating going to the hospital because I'm starting to get worried/scared about what's going on with my body.

I really wanted my hiatus to end a LONG time ago but I really need to stop pushing myself like this. I should be in bed I'm literally sick enough to be bed ridden for days but instead I just get restless and hop on to the computer. I need to go on a legit hiatus and just well ban myself from the computer and just check my phone every now and then. I'll try to start this up tomorrow and hopefully go to the hospital eventually. I'm just worried about the price and cost and stuff because no one here is made of money and I don't have health insurance and just hhhh I'm sorry everyone. I've just been trying to force myself to get healthy as fast as possible and instead I only got worse and further from my goals. I'm stupid and impatient and well... I'm just sorry. I hope I get well soon there is a good handful of people that I really miss talking to and I'm scared that they don't want to talk to me anymore and the fact that I can't bring myself to really talk to people when I'm sick just ughhgfduighfdiuj I'm a wreck goodbye.

Sorry for the accidental vent during my health update.